Educational and inspiring experiences thus far at NYC’s APAP 2019. The Power of WE. The Power of ART.
How to navigate agent, presenter’s relationships and communication very key in developing relationships. Always always learning.
Finding the appropriate collaborators, theaters, venues…this is now the task at hand for me and my show THE PASS. Work is never done…
I don’t remember the year however I remember the scene vividly. I was at Griffith Park park in Los Angeles with my friend Helen and my dog Ceasar, a handsome sheltie dog and he was playing and running around and he got very close to a few people sitting down near us. I yelled out to him to come back to me, and then the woman in the crowd spoke out with a very melodic heavy Irish accent – “Ceasar, Ceasar.” She then said, “He is lovely!” As he ran back to us my friend said in a very docile tone, “That’s the lead singer from The Cranberries.” I heard her voice from that day on, and often times mimicked it when calling my boy! So for me, Dolores O’Riordan was much more than just a great pop voice, she was one of the most distinct voices I ever heard call out my dear companion’s name, “Ceasar, Ceasar”. I can hear her today…still.
On another note, I am starting to introduce THE PASS to a few key people in London. So far, so good…more to follow as the story continues. Fall/winter 2018! If you can dream it, you can do it!
On Thursday 9/28 at 7 pm I unleashed for the first time The Pass, to an audience of 20 privately invited guests. It was held in the home of my director Gretchen Cryer. The performance was an extremely rewarding experience for me on many levels as I had worked so very hard to prepare for this event. I’d been working with a vocal coach, (Tania Travers) rehearsing long hours with my accompanist, Marta Sanchez, and with my director, as well as tweaking the script a lot before the show. The response was overwhelmingly positive.
I had told myself before I started the show that after I was done with my last final word of the script and had sung my last note if I asked myself “why did I do this?” I wouldn’t perform again. My first visceral response, I can’t wait to do it again!, was my Geiger counter–I WILL keep on performing the Pass, hopefully, many times. Once it was completed I was 100% ready to do it again. Now I am fine tuning all details, making the show even more special and full of impact.
The Pass coincided with the solemn time of Yom Kippur; I didn’t want to do any social media until Monday, after the High Holidays. Monday morning I was confronted with the dire news about the Las Vegas shooting. This tragedy did eclipse a lot of my inner triumph. What really affected me was that it was during a music event–and music to me is about what saves us, what gets us through the tough times. Here this 64-year-old man murders, destroys, at a music event–this stopped me cold in my tracks. It brings up the art of promotion; when is it appropriate to promote yourself or when should you concentrate on the tone brought about by a devastating interruption?
It’s Tuesday now, as we all try to swallow the facts about the Las Vegas shootings. Then more bad news…As a great performer, Tom Petty, leaves us, we realize how important every minute is. Friends attended his Hollywood Bowl performance last week; they said he was amazing. My song In a Matter of Moments is playing in my head. Still we must face that life just keeps going on, no matter what. You’ve gotta find the strength, the reasons to do what you do, to love what you do, to love the people you love and support and find a purpose even when things seem so insane. So my afterglow was dimmed; but there will be more afterglows to follow.
Always one to support female empowerment I was excited watching the 2017 Emmy Awards on TV Sunday night. The three women who stood out for me were Nicole Kidman, Reese Witherspoon and Ophrah Winfrey. Their speeches involved women in front of and behind the scenes in television production. Female empowerment can be an instinctive emotion or it can be generated by specific situations. I’ve always believed “I can do it myself” as opposed to “I don’t need a man…or anyone”; I’ve resisted seeming submissive, suppressed or vulnerable. I’m a self-reliant person, who just happens to be a woman, and have always insisted upon maintaining my sense of self above all. I remember growing up whenever my parents would allow my brother to do something that I couldn’t I asked why; they would answer “because you’re a girl.” This used to infuriate me; it brought out raw, innate feelings that came directly from my own perceptions and were not socially influenced. I was very aware at a young age that gender had nothing to do with my capabilities; I felt their perceptions were based on prejudices created by traditional rules not facts about me.
At the core of my show are the seeds of my ongoing quest for personal satisfaction versus audience approval. In show business you must present yourself as appealing to a variety of people but you are also doing it from a narrow self-induced perspective. You want to be appreciated and accepted by the masses because that means “success” whether it is a book, a record or a show. However, you want to be true to your inner voice, the same voice you have heard your whole life–the same voice that told me a girl could do anything, back when I was eleven or twelve years old. The intentions of the single mind are as powerful as the intentions of a hundred minds.
Can you hear yourself think?
Giving thanks in a very profound way this Thanksgiving! It is my favorite holiday after all. This year I am grateful for so much including all the support I have received for my new project THE PASS.
When I do anything for the first time, it’s a big deal. There’s the initial idea, the process of putting it together and the emotions that go with attempting something new. Then there’s the Euphoria once I do it… I actually did it! Next up, what’s next?
THE PASS had its first run through last night at Gretchen Cryer’s house with Brendan Littlefield at the piano and yours truly singing and reading the 16 vignettes created to tell my story. I was in a very numb state of mind before and after the run through. I was pushing myself so hard to get it done and then realized it had taken me less than a year to put it together. I am so very excited to keep polishing the show and share it!
Here’s a photo of myself with Gretchen Cryer, my teacher and director and pianist Brendan Littlefield just after we did the run through. It was the first time we all met and first time since I finished the script and added the songs in order, and it went thanksgivingly well.
The last piece of entertainment that brought the spotlight on to New Jersey was MTV’s JERSEY SHORE. Being a Jersey girl myself, and from TRENTON MAKES THE WORLD TAKES territory, not sure that show helped to lift the artistic value of NJ.
What is happening according to this article and a PBS show I recently watched, the Broadway show HAMILTON is bringing back interest in my home state in a good way! http://www.njspotlight.com/stories/16/07/05/hot-ticket-alexander-hamilton-s-new-jersey-connections/
Now let’s see musicals about women in history! Though my own history does not extend as far back as the revolution, the Boston Tea Party or Washington crossing the Delaware, the history of my own personal journey in the music business may create some fireworks, laughs and maybe even a few tears. While you won’t hear the sounds of muskets being fired on stage, you will witness the revolution of the female artist in the music business. Me and my sisters!